I thought I was truly saved once I started faithfully going to church, speaking in tongues. I thought I was really doing good when I could not tell you who the latest secular artists were and what songs they sang. I thought I was really saved when I stopped cursing and stayed out of the nightclubs. I thought I was really saved when I started giving to others and paying my tithes. I thought I was saved when I dressed differently than I did before; I'd cover up my body parts and wear long dresses and loose pants. I thought I was saved when I stopped watching movies or television shows that were ungodly.
Well in all that, I found out that my walk with God was not in vain but was progressing and it did not stop there. God was teaching me how to live for him, it was my choice not to do all those things or to change anything in my life. I thought I had to give up everything; well some things were necessary given my style of living before I accepted God into my life.
Today, while praying, God reminded me of the "YES" that he planted in my spirit about 6 years ago or so. That "yes" was one that set a covenant with God saying no matter what happens in my life or to anyone in my life, I will serve him alone and not turn to anything other than him. I will not serve anger, bitterness, frustration, ignorance, manipulation, unforgiveness, retaliation, wantonness, unfruitful desires, drunkenness, drugs, isolation, pettiness, pity, and the likes.
In that reminder, he showed me "MARRIAGE." When I accepted him as my personal savior, I accepted his hand in marriage. He skipped the engagement and married me out of trust. He loved me knowing I would betray him, but he hung in there and showed me for better or for worse. He died on the cross for me to show me in sickness and in health he would serve me in every area of my need. Nevertheless, I did not fully take his hand in marriage until I lived up to the covenant I made with him. The "YES!" I half stepped. I followed my own way of doing things and was chastised, but I found ways to climb out of that place and God was right there each time I went back there.
Today, Monday, 11/12/2018, God showed me the full-blown "YES" covenant. It was not only accepting the things that I could not change and continue to follow him throughout the pain and suffering; but, to love despite someone hating me. To speak in love to someone that was speaking evil to me. To look at them as a good person even though they were acting badly. To continue to see the beauty in them after they consistently showed ugliness. To encourage them even when they touch my hand and transferred their evilness to me with lies and deceit. To pray for them when they refuse to see the God in me and love Him. To pray for them when they see him, deny him and continue in their evil ways toward me. To not fight back when they fight against me; because it is not me they are fighting but the spirit of God that is within me.
God showed me his war suit; the helmet of salvation to protect my mind, the breastplate of righteousness to protect my heart., my loins girded with truth, that I might not be deceived by it; my feet shod with preparation, that I may follow his precepts step by step. He would protect my going out and coming in. He then showed me love on the cross! One that said "YES" despite my evilness, disobedience and so forth. Now that I know what my "YES" is to God to the fullest, I can truly accept it and make full efforts to live by it. I will be challenged on a daily basis throughout my day sometimes or oftentimes, however, I must carry out my "YES!"
The "YES" covenant is not only to God but to my husband as well. As I had spoken my vows to him, so shall I follow the "YES" concept to uphold my marriage to him. If God is truly living inside me, I must keep my eyes on the hills where my help comes from, or I will see my husband through natural eyes as a trader, one who I would hate, want to murder, or sass, or hit, or hurt; whatever the enemy set in my heart and mind to do because of what he may have said or done to me that hurt me. Oh, come on! You all have either said it or thought it! BE REALISTIC! If you can't then you could not possibly be a "YES" Christian. You definitely are not ready to live REAL before him or make valid changes in your life that he may live and breathe in you.
I want him to be seen in me! Though I am not 100% there yet, I am on my way. How? Because I see through spiritual eyes a deeper understanding of the words that are in the Bible. I see a deeper understanding of the things in this world. God gave me that as I desired to grow in him and keep the "YES" covenant. You can have that too! The word of God meets you where you are. Its meaning is remedial at first and then it gets complicated because you have grown and its meaning gets deeper and more unbelievable to others and sometimes you. YOU doubt the "YES" because it is uncomfortable and unnatural to the flesh. However, you have got to believe that once you accept the "YES" then and only then will you become married in the spirit and have died to the flesh. Your life will never be the same in your natural marriage and in the rest of your life.
FROM MY NEW BOOK....."YOU CAN BE YOU" (writing in Progress)
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