The Wilderness Experience

Oh how desolate it is,  but peaceful. There is no humanity, and no life, but the spirit of God.
It's extremely lonely,  as there is no beauty,  and nothing to entertain or be entertained , but the spirit of God.
Oh where is life? Why am I here? What is the purpose?
And God spoke: life begins when you die to self. You are in a place where you must see me.  To focus on my commandments. The purpose is to get you to surrender, to humble yourself,  and to protect you from worldly distractions.
But God, how long will I stay here? I hear you,  and I have no choice but to see things your way.  What will be the difference when I leave this place?
God spoke: you decide when to move from this place. Your decisions brought you here. You always have choice. Just know it is my will for you to live and not die.  The difference is whether you will or will not choose this day whom you will serve; Me or Satan. Your life depends on it. 
Thank you God for the wilderness experience. I truly want to live and not die. Show me how to die to myself. Teach me your ways so I can move out of this place with wisdom and truth. I want your purpose to be fulfilled in my life. I surrender all to you God.
And God spoke, my child you have spoke well,  I have already carried you to the next level,  just keep your eyes on me.